Had one of my more embarassing moments today.

Went to a birthday party and was dancing with this girl, it was just starting to get pretty hot and all when suddenly she pushes me away and says "My Dad's watching us".

Oops.

Sorry Dad.

Torpid. The current word to describe how I feel right now.

Nothing is bothering me. Nothing is that happy either.

I think it's because school is over yet I realize I still have so many responsibilities. I still have to study for SATs. I still have to worry over my grades. I still have to take my Mandarin lessons. Then, once summer break actually starts, I'm gonna go around the States and look at a bunch of colleges. I mean, I love the states and all that but going there to look at colleges makes it seem like a burden. Then once I get back from the States, I have a week and a half in Indo and then I'm off to Australia with my mom. God. I don't like Australia and to be honest, I'm not looking forward to hanging around my mom for 3 straight weeks in a foreign country. She's not gonna let me do anything whatsoever without her around. She treats me like such an incompetent, immature adolescent. I'm gonna be in college in a year for god's sake, and she still thinks I need constant parental guidance. She needs to realize that all my beliefs and values are pretty much set in stone at this point and most of what she tells me to think and believe in won't change my take on anhything. Fuck. I love my mom but she can be a real overbearing conservative nazi at times.

Damn. I can't believe i just wrote a whole paragraph of bitching.

Oh well. That's what this whole blog thing is for, right?